Once upon a time there was a several month period where I did not get headaches. That time is now over. If only I knew why. I think the current one is a combination of not being adjusted to my class schedule, photo chemistry, and a roommate that shares nothing with me.
The more I think about it, the less we have in common. He’s an 8 foot behemoth, I… am not. He plays sports. I like boys. He eats stinky pizza and has dirty laundry that makes the room smell like feet and I… I shower daily. He wears boats for shoes. I wear shoes in boats. I think you get the idea.
Oh well, at least we never talk. That’d just be another hassle entirely! Haha. I can’t really say what I was expecting out of college, because I never thought to much about it. It was just the next step, and that’s what it is.
Well, the step is kinda like Mr. Toad’s wild ride, but without the animatronic frogs and the car that goes on a track. I guess they’re kinda different that way. It took me longer to find friends than I would’ve liked, but I did find many great ones eventually, which is rocking. I thought my roommate and I would go on crazy adventures and stuff, but… nope. I think our room needs a couch or a futon. That’d be amazing. Everything is rather comfortable and happy, everything except the one big thing. The thing that’s been on my mind for the past two or three years. I’m damn impatient. I have said so many times that I’m over that want, that need, but I’ve been lying through a forced smile the whole time. I think a certain degree of loneliness is just a universal constant.
Setting goals for myself tends to not work. Ha. I think I should just work on removing expectations, because if you lived everyday with no preconcieved notions or expectations, think of how amazing that day would be. The world would be an entirely new and bright place there for your enjoyment.
People say it’s not healthy to listen to the same music non stop for days on end. It’s just music, right? Here’s to life and with all of its eccentricities, huzzah!