in a bag, I'm useless, but not for long, the future is coming on…

I thought a little Gorillaz would fit in as a good intro. Yeah, so in general I'm in a good mood. And this summer I've felt rather useless. No job, little work on the website. Yeah, I'm a bum. And.. as for the not for long, that either refers to the fact that I go to my school tomorrow. (class meeting + back to school night) My first full day is on Wednesday. God, I can't believe I'm going to be a Senior. This will be my 13th year of schooling. That's insane! I remember thinking 5th graders were scary. Heh, they made fun of me in middle school, but that's neither here nor there.

If you hadn't noticed, this is basically an entry complaining about school, but that's okay!

Yeah, what worries me this year is my workload (AP Calc, AP English, AP Gov, Debate, Journalism, Gym…) and my extra-curricular load. Let's see, I managed to become Thespian president, lead Brookings LD'er, and now that I'm a senior, I have to help lead the interp team. Oh, and I might try theatre again too. I value free time above all else, which is why I thank God I got a free period. I wonder if it's too late to switch AP Calc with German III… Eek. I still feel guilty about that. You know, I've decided I'm going to confront my demons and ask my counselor about it. I do not enjoy math at all, but I love foreign languages. So why did I drop German III, but keep AP Calc? I think I need 3 high level classes to be in NHS. Ap English and AP Gov are a given… Debate IV and Adv Journalism count too, right? Ha.. Oh, damnit, that's another thing. NHS. Why do I do these things? I don't actually care that much! I want to be in a creative field, not an academic one.

Speaking of that, Waking Life and everyone's constant proddings of “Make a CPA movie!!” has persuaded me to look into a career in animation. I like computers, and I enjoyed my time dabbling in 3d modeling. I also like art. So… wouldn't it be a logical career choice?

These are normal Senior year woes I'm sure, but I always get extremely nervous when school starts. You should've seen me before Middle School. I was a wreck.

As for social aspects, all is quiet. Heh, I've decided to live a life apart from love! It's more artistic-punk-indie-neodancegrooveoutonvoodooscience like. (Kill me) Maybe something will happen sometime. Someday! Who knows? Not me.

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