Caffeine does odd things to me.
Rufus Wainwright is singing “Origin of Love” for he is beautiful. Life is beautiful (I swear, trust me on this one).
Mom sounded disappointed/sad said “you have to do what you have to do” in response to my proposed move to Duluth. It is to be expected. I still have not looked into Brookings jobs, which is also to be expected.
I have not gotten any further with the zine, but I have written two essay due a few weeks from now. I have not completed things due Tuesday, which is to be expected. There are things I should figure out, but it has been a nice year regardless.
I did not shave for 10 days because that would be too long. Shit, that is really depressing to think about now.
“In the midst of life we are in death.” That quote comes up a lot. I dreamt of an earthquake last night. I realized it was a dream and tried to remember where I found shelter last time I had the dream (even though I hadn't actually had the dream before). I ended up on the roof of some wood building (more flexible than stone).
“To dream of an earthquake, suggests that you are experiencing a major 'shake-up' that is threatening your stability and foundation. The dream highlights you insecurity, fears and sense of helplessness. If you find cover from the quake, you will overcome these challenges. If you become trapped or injured during the quake, you will suffer loss of your business and assets.”
That seems generic and promising enough. I think I was in Paris. There was talk of escaping to the chunnel because it was going to become a “giant killer playground soon” or something. I am not sure how to take this dream every night thing.
The other night I dreamt about monsters that looked human. I fell in love with one that looked like Kurt Cobain and we slept together. I was nervous about telling him I was human.
“To dream that you are followed by a monster, signifies that grief and misfortune are in your immediate future. Monsters represent parts of yourself that you find brutish and ugly. You may possess some fears or some repressed emotions.
To dream that you kill a monster, signifies that you will successfully deal with your rivals and advance to a higher and better position.”
Okay, so I find the part of me that appears human (and gay, the monsters were all gay I think) is the part of me I find brutush and ugly. To say I possess some fears and repressed emotions is putting it lightly. And… by simple analogy, if I sleep with a monster, that means I'll sleep with my rivals, right?
Dream interpretation is fun because of how meaningless it is. woo.