but it's hard to get it right myself sometimes.
i woke up in a bad mood today. i really hate that, because it goes against a lot of what I try to follow. luckily, as with most of my emotional states, i was better within an hour.
naturally i managed to put someone else in a bad mood too. and once i was back to happy-go-lucky mode, it was witty happy-go-lucky mode.
i hate that i can't stop myself. i hate that i offend the ones i like best because i can't keep some “witty” comment to myself.
it's an ongoing struggle with me.
oh well. hopefully the play will go well tonight. (it went terribly last night, but the audience ate it up. lots of laughter. except while i was onstage. i hope to change that tonight.)
it's my mother's birthday tomorrow. feel free to give me gift ideas.
random thoughts:
#1) i took the presidential fitness 2-mile walk test today. i needed to do it in 25:08. i completed it in 25:47. (if i wouldn't have been having a conversation, i probably could've passed)
though 39 seconds is better than middle school when we all had to run a mile. the target was like 6 minutes and my average was between 17 and 19 usually. hurray for middle school humiliation.
#2) the night before last i remembered six (seemingly) distinct dreams. that's really amazing to me. today i was pondering that, apart from the other people involved, there is no true difference between waking memory and dream memory.
a story i tell you that happened when i was a child and you weren't there isn't all that much different than a dream i tell you happened last night. the only difference is i know one happened and one didn't.
perspective really interests me. i should do some reading on the subject.