I've decided that a lot of my social problems come from the fact that I allow the idea of the topher total package and wittyness to perpetuate. Things could be better if people didn't assume I hate them/assume I'm angry/assume I'm upset, pissy, whatever/assume I'm going to screw up/assume I'm going to make an ass of myself/assume I'm going to guilt trip them/assume I will only head the conversation in a direction they don't want to go/assume anything at all.
Yes, I know, I do those things, but wouldn't it be better as a surprise? For example, I know Maren is often late, but I never assume she will be. Every day I go think she could be here at any minute. Anytime we have plans I wait for her to show up at the scheduled time. I don't automatically think “Ok, Maren's coming, I've got 20 minutes to go do something else.” I think this is a good system.
I think this relates to my short term memory and ever changing moods. I may say something that upsets someone (accidently usually) and then I forgot about it and expect it to be ok. I guess I think that because we're friends and that's more important than some trite interaction. I don't want to use names, but I don't assume someone will be standoffish, I don't assume someone will always be cynical, I don't assume someone will always be depressed.
I hope for the best and I wish other people would too?
I guess the bad thing about assumptions is that people fall into ruts or push others into them. It's kind of like what I do for the comic, but I know that people aren't actually that. There's a lot more to people than that comic could ever portray. I make assumptions about myself regarding procrastination. (Hence no homework being done and the computer still not reformatted.) This is bad because I then don't do work when I could. I may instead… type lame deadjournal entries.
For any stalkers or wouldbe/havebeen friends, my address is 413 Ash Ave. You should know where I live and can find a zipcode.
I… I just wish people wouldn't assume things. The Jacobsens/Jon used to assume I was always pissy/depressed/wouldn't have fun so I got left out.
I don't want assumptions to get me left out of conversations and friendships.
p.s. I miss you. message me. all of you.
maybe I should lay off the acid