So I think I just had my first experience of leading someone on. Ack. Maybe gay boys can't just be friends. We'd hung out three times. Had a few beers the first. Dinner and Batman the second. Watched a movie tonight. I could feel him inching closer and closer on the couch but failed to stop it. When the movie finished with his arm around me we sat in silence for a few minutes before I broke into the “here's the thing” speech. He never asked if I had a boyfriend, but I never volunteered the information either. There hadn't been any sort of physical thing, but he probably thought we were taking it slow. I am a jerk. Maybe there's an episode of the Sex and the City that covers this.

On the bright side… probably a good experience to have. Assuming I ever find another gay friend I'll be a bit more forward about my relationship status. At least we didn't make out. Then I'd have been a really really big prick.

Shit.

MTV's Undressed has a plethora of clips on YouTube.

I watched this in secret in high school late at night. Despite the horrific awfulness of it, it was comforting to see some sort of gay on tv. There's not much gay in the day to day life of South Dakota. It fits into my love of trashy gayness with poor acting.

I need to see the second season of Dante's Cove.

Cough.

taken from

A) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.

I tag : anyone who still uses livejournal

01. which celebrity would you like to meet and why?
Amanda Palmer of the Dresden Dolls has always seemed like an intensely interesting and artistic person who might not be totally intimidating. Wait, no, she'd be intimidating as fuck to talk to. I did always want to meet Kurt Vonnegut and Robert Rauschenberg, but they're dead now.

02. what do you do before bedtime?
Stare at the internet for a few years.

03. what will your dream wedding be like?
Possible. Legal. Universally accepted?

04. what is the city of your dreams and why?
I always said I wanted to live somewhere with a train, and now I'm in Chicago. It's pretty dreamy so far. I think I'd prefer living in Berlin though.

05. are you an introvert or extrovert?
Introvert! People are scary. I wish I talked more. Or at least wrote. Sometimes I feel like I'm dying because there's not a consistent exchange of ideas from my head to the outside world.

06. who was your celebrity crush last year?
Sufjan was probably more of an '06 thing… How about Peter Stickles from Shortbus? Or Paul Dawson on an emotional level and Jay Brannan on a physical level.

07. do you trust easily?
I don't feel I put myself in a position to need to trust anyone. So no?

08. if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
That person is probably straight too, so the answer is write erotic fiction about them.

09. is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
This fiasco of a career search.

10. so you have a good body-image?
I've had manboobs for about 12 years now.

11. is being tagged fun?
I wouldn't know. Cough.

12. what websites do you visit daily?
erm… this list would be embarrassingly long due to all the webcomics I keep up on as well as my social networking addictions.

13. who are currently the most important people to you?
the boyfriend and the two best friends Maren and Bridget

14. what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
the sexy french canadian kind

15. what

Why was I not informed this movie existed? Nathan Bexton as the awkward gay high schooler crushing on the straight jock. I need to hunt Play Dead down somewhere. It doesn't seem to be on Amazon. Jerks.

There's simply not enough Nathan Bexton in this world.