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“I’m sorry, I didn’t hear you, I was busy writing my own name and drawing big stars all around it.”

That’s my new favorite quote. This site rocks.

Yeah, so there’s a lot of stuff I want to type but I can’t seem to get it out. Currently I’m just yawning a lot. Sleep and tiredness and stuff is stupid. Dreams are even more stupid. I don’t have interesting dreams anymore. Here’s a rundown of the past few weeks:

Last night: I dreamt I was at a debate tournament and for some reason I managed to get there without knowing what the topic was or even writing a case. I found Ms. Pies (interp coach) and tried to explain that I was sick and couldn’t debate. I also didn’t really have a case idea. She tried to make one for me and I was really freaking out. Then I realized I was dreaming. At first I thought I still had to debate and that sucked, but then I decided I could wake up and that would be the best thing.

Yeargh…

A few nights ago: I was in Washington, DC with friends for some reason and we were trying to take pictures in front of the white house and capitol and stuff. These were actually just signs on the edge of a field a block away from here. Since it was a dream the whole standing in one place and posing for pictures thing wasn’t working. People kept moving and shifting when I tried to take a picture. Then later I saw Jon and had an awkward conversation. “Jon! Funny seeing you here, I thought you were dead. So you must be pretty busy this summer” and etc. Lotsa bitchiness and guilt tripping on my part. Then I thought “Geeze! Why do I always do this? I wish I hadn’t said those things.” That was when I realized I was dreamign and felt relief.

Hmm, I think that night I also had a dream that I dropped stuff into the vent behind my bed. When I tried to get it a bunch of slightly larger than normal red spiders were all over. At some point in the dream I went downstairs and into the garage and similar spider incidents occured.

Spiders. I still have stupid bug dreams. I’ve had some other smaller dreams that I don’t remember as well too. For some reason my dreams keep involving Jon. I don’t even try to think about him that much anymore. The friendship thing just doesn’t work. I wish he’d get out of my damned head.

“Headlines, breadlines, blow my mind. How do you xxxxx when life seems more like fiction each day!”

I spent last weekend in Omaha. Friday night till Monday afternoon. Brandi needed to have a bunch of her crap moved to a new apartment. Got trapped in a non working elevator for 5 or 10 minues. That was kind of scary. It moves, but the door will not open. I had a dream about that too. Brandi has so much stuff. It’s kind of scary. 4 van loads of stuff and countless trips from outside to her room 9 floors up. It’s packed with boxes. Unpacking should be fun for her.
While we were there we saw four movies. I saw Evil Dead II with Brandi at the Dundee, an old theatre that replays random classic/cult type movies every weekend. That was really cool. The audience yells out stuff and things. It was funny. After that Brandi and I went to Denny’s. It’s no Country Kitchen, but eh, it’s ok.

The next day I saw Minority Report and the Bourne Identity with my mom and sister. Minority Report looked cool. I dunno. I have low standards for movies and it’s hard for me to say that a movie that cost so much to make and looks professional and costs $8 to see is crap. I like most movies I see. On Sunday we saw Lilo and Stitch. Good movie. I like animated films and Disney can do good in theatres. And they had Kevin McDonald do a voice! That’s always a plus. We ended up having to stay till Monday because my mom’s friend wanted us to bring a piece of furniture back. One more day from home and friends. ugh. I lived.

Monday was weird. Got the dresser things, drove. Stopped in Sioux Falls for awhile. That was good I guess. I bought some crap. Damn dirty money. Posters for the basement! Loss of coherant sentence structure. Bleargh.

Tuesday has been bad. As I said, I’m feeling “weird.” First there was yawning, then there was the feeling of emptiness, then the need to do something, but not, and now anger. My mom came in to ask when I wanted to see some plays but I was just angry and yelled at her saying that I didn’t care. It doesn’t really make sense for me to be pissed at her, but I am.

God damn stupid emotions. And teen years. Curse you hormones, curse you.

My last entry went poof in a server failure. It was mostly rambling. Not unlike every single one of my journal entries.

Yeah, so in CPA news, after so long you get burnt out on updating at 3am or after every few nights. Which leads to today's masterpiece. Damn you maren and Quest for Fire, damn you.

Quest for Fire really is the source of all my problems currently. Ben brought me this udder piece of… crap. It's 100 minutes of torture. A harrowing “realistic” view of warring neanderthal tribes back in… the past! And an eternal search for… fire. Gosh it was lame. Ben is back in my life it seems. He likes to burn things (and so much more apprently!) Yeah, we need to kill him for his sins.

In other news, I spent 2 hours today with Tucker (bob), Kevin, and Luke.
“Bob” is none other than the owner of one of my favoritre websites, Abnormal Comics. I really like him, but I fear our views differ greatly. I admire his huge talent. Kevin is cool too, but he's the.. strong silent type, ha. And luke.. luke… I want to like you, but our views differ even greater. Perhaps if we came to an understanding where I'd just shut up it'd be good. Tucker and Luke together make for an interesting combo (*coughtoomuchstartrekandmontypythonkillmecough*) Ha, yep.

I made Steph E. from Brookings into construction paper after about 4 months. Need to scan her. Hmm, going to revamp everyone's looks in the comic shortly. Comic! I should stop typing and go work on today's comic for tomorrow. ha.

I can call you bet-TAY!

Ha… that was good.

Yeah, so Steph is here. That's some stuff I forgot to add, so let's do that now.

Tessa- I met Tessa at fruit camp. She was one of those neat people that find me so I don't have to put any effort into forming a friendship. I'm lazy in that respect, but seem to just gain trillians of friends. It's great. Well, anyway, Tessa is THE definition of punk, wait, no, that's Steph. *snicker* Tessa is very neat and punk and cooler than me and stuff. She lives in Webster and went to school in Groton or something. I always get it messed up. She was my super-debate-buddy pal and helped me live through many a tournaments. She's also cool because she drives 1.5-2.5 hours to see me sometimes. And she came to see our school plays. (sucker!) Ha. I HEART TESSA.

I really HEART tessa's friends too, they're so spiffy looking. I wish I could wait to get to know them all, and I have gotten to know
Steph- Steph got to know tessa at some point or something. When Tessa first gave Steph a ride home she played a burned cd with Paul Simon- You can call me Al on it. I made that CD. Tessa also prodded Steph to come visit my website and worship my geniousity! Har har. Steph apparently fell in love with me from afar and was desperate to meet me. When I went to Boys State, nazi camp, Tessa brought her friends one night to knock on my window. Steph freaked out and attempted to break the window down freaking me and my roommate out. That night was not to be so instead I met Steph and Tessa's other friends on a later day. They were neat. I kicked Steph. Later, I convinced Tessa to come to my birthday party. She brought steph with. It was great. STEPH STEPH STEPH STEPH. Ha! Yeah, so that was one long glorious night and steph became obsessed.

Which brings us to why Steph decided to make a journey here to visit me for 3 days. She's special.

All my friends are special. This has been one ride. My hair is bluegreenish and pretty. And people are special. Late nights are really great. I've started putting crap in mini-sketchbook porno parties. That made no sense. I need to shut up.

yeah, so I'm awake, and that's about it. More laziness. I rock at this whole productivity thing. ha. Yeah, so far I've spent most of my time at the PvP Forums. Oh, and in #pvponline on irc.magicstar.net. It's a great time waster. Currently there's a thing going on, with some people I know, and I have mixed feelings, and the bla and the stuff and the hurting! Fryn Laven!

So anyway, I said I was going to rip off Steph/Antiapples and do a friend/person list thingy. This post will be pretty important in understanding my pysche! (spooky music)

Hmm, there's probably some sort of order here, but don't focus on it too much.

Maren- Maren. Maren maren maren. We've formed a most interesting friendship over the past year/half year. Sophomore year we were in several thousand classes together, but I never really knew her. She was some girl sitting in the corner looking pissed all the time. That's most people's first impression of her. Due to circumstances in our Junior year, the Journalism class was divided into two factions and formed closer bonds. This is when I actually got to know Maren. She's a bitter girl, but in a good way. She has reasons for her bitterness and it isn't pointless. Anyway, we got to know each other and now we're pretty good friends. She met the love of her life, Seth, at my first Holiday Shindig. It's infamous! See here Maren in back, Seth in middle. You get the picture.

Kelsey- The fact that I've become friends with Kelsey amazes me to this day. She's a year older, and a thousand times cooler. I first talked with her via ICQ several years ago and made a total ass of myself. Later she was the head of makeup for BHS and painted my naked body. That was awkward. Anyway, via Levi we ended up becoming friends. Late nights at Country Kitchen ensued. Her personality and sense of style are so cool. Her favorite color is pink, though she's no cheerleader by any means. She's brought much to my vocab. Evol. Lovers. Pee in my butt. Weiner. Weiner in your butt. We HEART Kelsey!

Alex- Ooooooh Alex. How do we love you, let us count thee ways.. ungh. The friendship between Alex and I is a very rocky one. (Take for example the five month period where we didn't talk to each other, just at each other) That was scary. Alex is a really interesting person, but sometimes too interesting. There are times when Angst and arthouse manners can go too far, but we love him anyway. I fear childhood incidents may have affected certain parts. hehe

Emma- I met emma at Fruit Camp / Governor's Camp / Ambassadors of Excellence. This is odd, considering she was from Brookings and we didn't really get to know each other till a few months into the school year. Emma is emmaish. She likes the Beatles, but that's a piss poor way to describe her. She's two years younger and could look and act like she's 30 years older. She is the true regulator of the entire friend circle cycle thingy I have going on.

Donni- Donni is boisterous. And an 8 year old fairy princess. I met her at camp too and she introduced me to Emma. She's a year younger and very special. When I was being a pile-loner thing at camp, Donni was too so we formed a “hello” alliance. We would both say hello to each other in the halls so we could be super-best friends. Hard to do when Donni is somewhat.. vacant in the halls. Heh. Sadly, I seem to know Emma better than Donni now. Donni, we need you!

Sonya- I haven't talked to Sonya for two weeks, oops. Need to call her. I met sonya in freshmen chemistry. Mrs. Boever, the teacher, likes to form “chemistry” between students as well. So we became partners. Heh. Sonya also sat near me in Keyboarding and passed numerous notes. She was in debate too. She was everywhere. Sonya opened my eyes to the world of music, and for that I thank her. Even though we poke fun at Sonya a lot, we love her. She's very funny and knoweldgeable on stuff. Go sonya!

Seth & Levi- They were super best friends at some point or something, I'm not too aware of the situation to comment. I met these people sometime after 6th grade at the wonderful establishment of Brosts. I was led into a 3 year downward spiral of wasting money on Magic, Warhammer, and several other collectible games. A little bitter about that, but oh well. Seth has a brother named Levi too, but I don't really know him that well. The Levi I'm mentioning is different. Levi is a person who intimidates me somewhat. Another result of my inferiority complex. Levi's a great guy, but recently he seems to have been pulled away by a girlfriend named Angie. I don't think I understand the situation enough to be pissed. Kelsey is pretty angry over the whole thing. All in all, Levi is going to be a rockstar someday. yep. Seth is.. a sex dwarf or something. I don't know. He's very funny and hyperactive and stuff. It's kind of scary. Him and Maren have somewhat contrasting personalities, but that's what makes it cool.

Oh.. and there's other people I'll mention later, but perhaps I should discuss someone now.

Jon. Jon is bleargh. I credit Jon with the creation of me. Jon brought me to Brosts. Brosts brought me to several people. Jon was once an integral part of my life, but I think I'm finally realizing that won't work. Our friendship just doesn't work. I'm too bitter or something. And I guilt trip too much or something. Whenever I attempt to call him, he's never home or already got plans. It just doesn't work. Jon's personality is fine, but it just angers a lot of people and perhaps if I let it go all would be best. So here's to Jon, may he flourish in peace and not give a damn about me, evermore.

Yep, it's late. Thought I'd pop in here again to share my thoughts and feelings.

I'm blue. Daba Deeba! I need to stop saying that. Well, in website news, I actually did stuff! I got some t-shirts finished so myrthco merchandise is finally open for business after several months. Then I updated some art stuffs and plan on doing more. I've been slow and a pile, but I am plugging along and doing some stuff. I love accomplishment. I need to think of more content ideas for the site. Too bad I didn't rescue any more journalism stories before school got out. Maybe I could retype them all. Ha.

Emotions.. Whee. I'm pretty good. Alex was being weird earlier, but he's better now. Alex is great, but we tend to get pissy at each other a bit too often… Oh well. I've lost all abilities as a decent writer. It's sad, really.

I've done stuff with friends every night I've been home. Not a single night to just be alone with my thoughts all day and night. That's kind of scary. Tonight I was with Kelsey and Maren and we watched Grosse Pointe Blank and Ghost World. BOth good movies. I need to look into finding out some more stuff on Ghost World. The ending is just sad and leaves you feeling empty and wanting more. I'll leave it at that, lest I spoil something. Hmm, I think I'll come back later when I have something to say. Bie Bie!

Yo.

I’ve had one other online journal, but I never really used it. Here’s to progress! Yeah, so this is the end of the second week of summer and I’ve done shit. First week was Boys State, my oh my what a wonderful experience that was. Well, it was cool to make a paper a day and experience some journalistic like experiences, but it’s something I couldn’t fathom doing twice. Too much regimentation for my taste. Not nearly as cool as fruit camp! Ahh fruit camp / governor’s camp / ambassadors of excellence, how I love thee… I’ve met so many people there. I.. didn’t really meet too much of anyone at Boys State. Two or three people tops probably. Oh well.

This second week of summer has been bad for me. It’s been a lot of fun, almost too much. I stay out late with friends every night then come home and sleep till noon. I’ve accomplished very little. This summer is supposed to be an artistic renaisaance for me! Not a time of great slacking off. Ungh. Oh well, I’ll get around to stuff I guess.

I dyed my hair blue last friday. That was fun. However, rinsing it in the sink every morning and getting blue EVERYWHERE is not as much fun. Oh well. I smell of blueberries. It was interesting at the first annual siouxland renaisaance festival yesterday. Hurrah for hecklers! And wenches! I think I’ll work on getting some of those pics up soon.

So far this summer I’ve been pretty good moodwise. only one day of something that was depression like. I felt bad for that. Otherwise, this summer has been great. Even made a new best friend! Ha. You go Antiapples / steph, you go! Tessa and Steph. I love ‘em to death! Hmm. I need to go pretend to work on something now. Something more productive than this.

Peace out and stay frosty.